i don't really feel like updating...but i feel it's necessary after so many months.  HI!  school's under way.  my senior year is awesome and bitchy all at once.

the bitchy part:  school is kinda hard.  i'm borderline overwhelmed with what's ahead of me, as well....graduation?  real world?  job?  ha.  i thought hs grad was hard...  but i have a feeling this one will be easier.  hs grad was really really really uncertain...i had never experienced a change that great nor seen the results of such change.  and i love college.  so hopefully i'll love working just as much.  i also suck at life when it comes to boys.  there's really not much more i can say than that.  i need to stop being boy crazy. argh

AWESOME:  i LOVE my girls.  absolutely love them.  i do miss my girls from last year, but i've seen a few of them out and about and it's good to know they're surviving without me.  i like to think i had an itty bitty part in that whole survival thing.  my staff partner is awesome, though i miss kristina a TON.  i did my first real program tonight, and there were quite a few women there.  they really enjoyed it.  they said we need to do things like this more often.  YAY!  an interest in programs!  WOOT!  i am also getting ready to be a small group leader on a retreat here at kstate.  i am way super excited.  please say some prayers for the retreatants and the staff members.  we are all working hard, and i really hope that we can allow Christ's love shine through us.

ok, it's late...bed is calling my name.  too bad they turn off the AC when it gets 'cold' out.  so i'll be sweating all night.  awesome. :)

TA DA!!!  another summer update from your favorite nonregular xanga-er.  get excited for a fun filled entry.

ok, last post was in may...what's happened since then?  well, columbia was a blast.  it was absolutely awesome to spend 6 days with my bestest best friends.  kate and meghan seriously know me better than any person on this earth.  and being with them makes me happy, no matter what we're doing.  with meg i watched like 7 hours of surreal life and fell in love with peter brady (haha).  with kate we had a lot of talk time, which is good for both of us.  basically, it was f-ing awesome.

MEGHAN IS FINALLY 21!!!  boy, that was an interesting night.  we had a lot of fun.  meg was wearing a birthday girl button so she got a lot of free drinks.  the first bar a lot of old(er) creepies were hitting on her (us maybe?) and as a result we didn't spend a penny there.  nice.  then we continued on, and made friends with three strangers. we ended up hanging out with them for the rest of the night (two guys and a girl).  they were tons of fun.  and the guys were cute, especially one...dang he was HOTT!!!  :)  it was really awesome to have meg in kc for a few days before she went to london.  we basically spent every moment together that we could.  i miss her so much.

kate came to kc over father's day weekend.  it was so awesome to see her.  we went out for a few beers, which is always nice.  then we ended up at ihop on 119th.  we had a lot of fun talking, and it was great to just spend time with her.  i don't know how i'm handling this summer without her!  towards the end of our meal the guys behind us were being really funny, so we were laughing (ok, i was laughing) really loudly.  as we were paying for our meals this guy was walking out and he threw a 20 bill at us and said "here, you girls were having so much fun...dinner's on me!"  we were like "uh, no!  take your money!"  but he said no and left.  awesome!  so he bought our meals, which was a total of like $11.  woot!

hmm...what else?  work's been fine.  i haven't worked at all this past week b/c i was volunteering for a cubscout camp.  it was actually a TON of fun!  more fun than i expected i think.  the other volunteers were kinda young, since a lot of them are current boyscouts.  some are clients of the social worker that i shadowed who directs it ever summer (thus how i got conned into volunteering).  it was a lot a lot of fun.  i felt really old though, seeing as i was the oldest volunteer...well, besided the EMT.  who is 28.  and on whom i developed a crush...  which just goes to show that i will find the one elligible guy and start liking him.  i'm too boy crazy.  it's bad for me i think.

and i think that brings me to the present...  hopefully this weekend isn't too sucky at work since it's the weekend before the fourth of july.  i remember my first fourth at the store...it was hell.  on a positive note...things i'm looking forward to: concert on tuesday!, fourth of july (even though i have no plans...), NORTH CAROLINA!!!, and hopefully having fun with people...call me, seriously. 

welp, folks, summer is officially underway.  so far it isn't completely awful like i expected.  i mean, there's definitely been some days that have sucked, and i'm not really sure why.  i think it's the fact that i don't really have an actual home.  i'm staying at sean and emily's right now (brother-in-law and sister), and that's been all right.  there's no where to put ANY of my stuff and i mean that in the most literal sense possible.  everything's still in boxes/laundry baskets.  moving was a bitch, it took me like 12 hours to just pack my shit up  YAY procrastinating!  but i survived. 

ok, back to emily and sean's.  i've been sleeping on a couch most of the time i've been back in KC...and for those of you who know me, i don't like sleeping in anything but a bed.  i mean i almost stopped being friends with meghan over it once, that's how picky i can be.  but i haven't really disliked it as much as one would think i would.  their dog, stash, is absolutely adorable and i've fallen head over heels for him.  we went to the dog park twice, and it was sooo funny to see him running and swimming and such.  he can catch a ball in the air!!!!!  so smart.  i love him.  and i think he is what has made a lot of what could have been sucky ok.  if that makes sense.

highlight of my time in KC so far: WALDO CRAWLDO.  yes, i went on a pub crawl in the waldo area.  and who did i go with?  matthew harris and a small portion of his family (extended and immediate).  we had a lot of fun just kickin back, having a few beers, and laughing a ton.  it was great.  probably in my top 5 or so favorite times in KC.

right now i'm in good ol' CoMo (Columbia, Mo) visiting kate and meghan.  it's been fun, very relaxing, and expensive.  definitely spent way too much money shopping yesterday...oops!  might need to take some of the stuff back.  kate's at work right now so i'm catching up on email/AIM/facebook/xanga time.  i also watched garden state.  SUCH a good movie!  and with that i think i will conclude my super long post.

OH YEAH...my grades are as follows: A in Family Relationships and Gender Roles; Bs in Socwk ResMeth I, Earth in Action/Rocks for Jocks, and PWorld 2; C in Microecononmics--YAY I PASSED!  but dang it!  it's my first C :(  ok, i'm out kids.  love y'all!

hello stalkers!  you must be starving for Laura, since it's been almost a month.  well, here's a good helping of the delicious Laura!  (ok, that just sounds wrong)

so the year's winding down.  finals are next week.  i'm procrastinating...oh wait, that's normal.  my finals shouldn't be TOO hard, hopefully.  econ is still kicking my ass...HARD.  i'm starting to get bruises that rival the one i got when i fell and bounced down two steps in front of thompson hall.  anyway, i may get my first C in college...and maybe my first D, too.  all in the same semester, AWESOME!  but that's ok, i've been accepted into the social work program, so all is well.  i don't really need to worry too much.

summer plans include the following, in no particular order:  working, week long trip to NC, working, classes?, weekend trip to como/manhattan/lawrence, sleep maybe, laying out, working, chillin with emily and sean, KC PUB CRAWL woot woot!, concerts at river market, oh yeah and WORKING. 

i hope it's a fun summer.  living arrangements are still up in the air.  it's rought having to decide not only between mom and dad, but also grandma/aunt/sister, and actually being adult enough to pick what i want to do.  i'll give a final update on how that ends up.

ok, what else is there to update?  not much really...at least i don't think so.  if anything happens, i'll let you know...probably 3 months later

it's been awhile...sorry!

school's rough.  i really need to buckle down (ha, if i had a dollar for every time i said that...).  it's really not about buckling...more about not procrastinating.  i encourage everyone who reads this to help me stay on the ball.  i hate you for it temporarily, but i'm sure i'll thank you sooner or later

spring break was pretty fun.  i worked pretty much every day 9-6.  it was good to be back at the store, but stressful, too.  there's a lot of changes going on.  we're doing some remodeling/expansion type stuff.  we're also getting new floors!  yay!  and we got some new shelves which is really good b/c the old ones were kinda dirty. 

on my one day off i shadowed a LCSW, which is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker.  He works mostly with foster children doing home based therapy and assessments.  it was really really cool to see what a real social worker does.  i really like how he works with his clients, especially since it's all homebased.  many foster children are shuffled around, whether it be between homes or between court houses or between schools.  i think that it makes sense to come to them for therapy and assessment situations.  introducing one more sterile office to an already overwhelmed child is unneccessary.  i think the best part of that day was realizing that this is what i want to do.  i am really excited to be a social worker.  and as of right now, i'm thinking foster care would be a good route to take.

i am also becoming a CASA (court appointed special advocate).  if you don't know what that is, i really really REALLY urge you to go to http://casa.manhattanks.org/  this will tell you all about CASA in manhattan.  if you don't live in manhattan i really encourage you to see where the nearest CASA organization is.  it is an amazing way to help a child who doesn't have a voice. 

spring break also made me realize i need to decide what i'm doing this summer.  well, i know i'm going to work...but what else?  i should take a class or two to make my last year at kstate easy.  i need to decide exactly where i'm going to live in KC.  i also need to make some realistic goals for what i want accomplished, such as what road trips to take, etc.  so be on the lookout for that!

all righty, gotta hop in the shower.  love you!